For ME, For YOU

“It’s for Me, For You

And all the things that ya’ do..

It’s For You, For Me

And all the things you can be…

ThanX! .. to the New Professionals !”

”For Me, For You” ©2002 Messin With Records

It’s amazing all the years spent focusing on problems and challenges and all that was going wrong and all that wasn’t happening that was “supposed to” and all that wasn’t going to change and all that had changed and all that wasn’t the same and all that we were against and all that were against me and all that happened to me …and all the things .. and all the things… and all the things… and all the things………….

Damn! I’m getting tired just thinking about it! Those were some tiring times.. Running around chasing something.. And somehow never seemed to find anything except myself in the same place over and over and over again.. In the last few years of my downward spiral that place was on the kitchen floor, with one shoe on.

This verse above, came to me right after the debut performance of a friend’s group, “The New Professionals” at the seedy Meow Mix, (remember Chasing Amy?) a Lower East Side, NYC seminal Lesbian Bar. I had recently moved on from a relationship and would run into her over and over as I had moved two blocks over in the same community.

Now that I’m reflecting back, I recognize that the shame of fleeing / being fearful / looking within myself all went away when I made it about the other person. Freeing someone else from the hell I was putting us through was relieving to me and really told me that I had made the right decision. 

Ok.. now back to the future here.. Why me? Why does this all happen? You ever ask yourself that?

I have found that life really happens however you wish it to. If you tell yourself that it’s raining and the day is gonna suck, then it likely will start off kinda rough.. If you tell yourself, hey.. It’s raining.. I think I’ll work on this project inside/ take some time to read my book/ write a postcard to my uncle… It can turn out to be a day that will move you forward to somewhere you want to be, doing what you might want to be… 

What if I was to say that Life Happens FOR YOU as opposed to TO YOU? 

What do you do with that? Add someone else to the mix: a friend, a community, a loved one and that might point to Purpose. How does that feel? … and who’s it all for? 

“It’s for Me, For You

And all the things that ya’ do..

It’s For You, For Me

And all the things you can be…

ThanX! .. to the New Professionals !”

Who is YOUR New Professional? …are YOU the New Professional?

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